Wednesday, December 29, 2004

My Response...

--->movie: iRobot-- i'm surprised that i enjoyed this movie.. i'm not a big will smith fan, but it's a pretty good movie.

I saw this on a pirated disc. It was descent, but I didn't think they did a very good job of explaining why Will Smith hated robots so much. Not much plot.

-->book: secret history by donna tartt-- i'm probably going to recommend this book to everyone.. it's my fave.. heh.

Haven't read it.

-->album: talkie walkie by air-- i'm so stupid.. i seriously thought they were air supply.. thank you grace for correcting me.. hehe.

Haven't heard it.

-->Q1: if you had the chance, would you get back together with PM?

Cop-out. Maybe. She's made it clear that she's not interested, and she lives in Texas, so realistically probably not. But who knows.

-->Q2: do you think that there is something in the Monterey water that makes everyone back stabbing.. psycho.. biotches that don't have anything better to do than make people miserable? (oops.. that's me venting.. sorry.. hehe)

I don't really know either. But I have met more shallow people here than anywhere else. You'd think the nice weather would make people more pleasant, but NOPE!

-->Q2: if we met and i had bad breath, a booger hanging out of my nose and food on my shirt.. would you still be my friend? :P

Yes. I'd be your friend as long as you returned my calls, didn't rob me, lie to me, or generally try to take advantage of me. I've definitely got room in my life for some good peeps.

random questions.. i'm a dork.. :P

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

I'm supposed to post this...

(A) First, recommend to me:1. a movie2. a book3. a musical artist, song, or album

(B) Ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. Answers will be posted next week--great time for strangers to say hi.

(C) Then go back to your blog, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything; say that you stole it from me.

ask me anything.. i'll answer it.. urr..maybe..

STOLEN FROM JULIA!

Ok, so it's been awhile...

I must admit, when I first started writing this blog I had these grand ambitions of putting my thoughts down at least once a day. Sounds easy right? Well, apparently, when I feel down, I also don't feel like logging in and writing.

PLUS!

My computer, Daphne, (that's right I named my computer), crashed. She crashed hard. Now I am in the tech industry, so I know a few things about these contraptions, but 3 days of aggravation later, I can't even get her to boot up. Strange, because it's kind of like losing a loved one. In fact, maybe sadly, I've probably spent more time with Daphne, than any of my girlfriends over the last few years.

This Christmas has pretty much sucked. I have been basically completely alone for almost 10 days straight. All my friends are out of town, and I am too poor and too afraid to get wet to venture out of my house. Not only that, but a few days ago I had to report my junker car stolen. Nothing like talking to cops, especially on Christmas Eve.

My parents want me to come visit them in Fremont on Thursday. I had to delay the trip by a day, because another "friend" of mine robbed me. Not like she held me at gunpoint, but here's the situation. She called me everyday, like 5 times a day or more, even in the early morning looking for some pot. I have a friend who helps me out from time to time, so I made the arrangement for her. Anyhow, she comes over, takes it from me, says that she has to go down to the bank and "break her bill", and she'd be right back. That was 6 days ago. I have 24.37 to my name right now, so that $50 bucks she owes weighs heavy on my mind.

I'm not perfect. Not by any measure. I often wish I never started smoking or drinking or indulging in mj. But one thing I know for sure is that I have a lot more sense and morals than most of the people I come into contact with.

It's kind of funny really, because I feel trapped between two types of friends. Reliable friends, who are often caught up in religion or academics, who find it too easy to judge me for my "habits". OR Druggie friends, who don't judge me, but are so far gone with their addiction, as to have no idea how to operate in the real world.

I've never been to jail, and don't think I would find myself there except for the "friends" I keep. I can imagine myself getting arrested because one of my supposed friends couldn't make a reasonable choice.

I know I have bad habits, and I know they hurt me. What I can't find is the middle ground of acceptance. People who have flaws AND RECOGNIZE THEM.

I'm as much tired of religious moralists, as I am irrational and unpredicatable drug addicts.

Where is the middle ground? My druggie friends see me as the rock they can rely on, and my religious friends keep hoping to save me. I hate this. When I was younger, these differences didn't seem so pronounced, but the older I get, the more quickly I can identify the same scenarios repeating again.

It's turned me into a bit of a hermit. I've lost a lot of trust for the world and people. I realized years ago, that many of my bad habits like smoking or drinking don't ultimately better my life. It's not like I crawl the bars, or even drink every day, but I have a bad habit of needing "something" to take me out of my head sometimes.

I once thought that I was a handsome man. For most of my late teens and early twenties I just sort of cruised through life. I never had a shortage of friends or parties, or even girlfriends for that matter. But now it's just not the same.

Now I have fewer friends than I can count on one hand. And some of those "friends" have recently proved themselves completely unreliable. I guess I am just tired. I am tired of looking and trying to find the good in people, when so often it seems that selfishness and self-interest is their only motivation.

Since I really don't know what else to add right now, I think I will resign at this point and watch some terrible FOX.

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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

MY Beef With FOX.

Do you like FOX? Cause I do, and I hate myself for it.

And it's not because I'm worried about Rupert Murdoch either. It's because watching FOX is like running a minefield.

You know what I mean don't you? Half the time you watch FOX, the shows ROCK! I'm not just talking watchable, but really cool and entertaining. The other half the time, the shows SUCK! Any screentime at all, and you want to scrub your bleeding eyes out.

Why is FOX both REALLY REALLY GOOD and REALLY REALLY BAD?

A paradox!?

Nope.

America.




If those European's want to "understand" America today. Watch FOX.

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Now that's an interesting idea!

Backs Turned...

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Maybe this would help?

Wingman

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It's my Birthday and I'll cry if I want to...

Well, today is not actually my birthday, that won't happen until Thursday, when I will turn 29 years young.

My whole life I have struggled with bouts of depression that seem to come out of nowhere. Literally, I will wake up feeling bad, without reason, and stay feeling that way all day long. Sometimes I can shake it by the evening, but too often I have to rely on "medicines" of an un-prescribed nature.

This year is especially hard, because I am nearing the scary 30 years old, I'm stuck in a dead-end job that I don't really like, and I am alone. I have been really fortunate over the years I guess, to have usually had someone loving in my life, who has helped counter-balance this tendency. But this year I have not been so lucky, partly out of my own desire to work through some of this stuff before I get involved with anyone else.

I wonder often if that is just a lie that I tell myself. The idea of working stuff through, seems to suggest that there is a particular event or feeling that motivates my unhappiness. In reality, most of the time I feel this way, it simply defies logic, and doesn't seem to be based on any one thing. How can I possibly work through something I can't identify?

I also don't want to be "looking for love" because I have already had such extraordinary opportunities in the past to have exactly this, and more often than not, my actions and feelings guided these relationships into defeat. Now I second guess myself. I think that I am good-hearted person inside, but too often my depression or anxiety makes me a callous fool.

A few posts ago I wrote about someone just like this, that made a tremendous impact on my life, in the short time that we were together. She was the kind of woman that was not only intelligent and lovable, but someone I truly admired. Despite these feelings though, I made a lot of poor choices and mistakes, which gradually and painfully drove us apart. It's hard for me to take all the blame for this, but I feel like it is the most honest intrepretation.

For some reason the people that have been gravitating to me lately, are full of worse problems than me. I have one friend who is a brain damaged gambler, another who is a crank-addicted single mom, and three others, who while not as bad off as the former, don't have more than about 30 minutes a week to spend time with me.

I know that it is my responsibility to make new friends, especially ones with good values that are closer to my own, but too often I come home from work feeling tired and trapped. I go out to the bars occasionally to meet some people, and I usually find that I can start up conversations quite easily with people, but ultimately this rarely leads to any lasting friendships. Many of these individuals too, are struggling with the same issues, or worse, than I am.

I also know that no one can "rescue" me from this precipice. I can't expect anyone else to come up with the big fix that is going to lead me out of these woods. But I feel like I can't control these cycles that leave me feeling depressed or sad 5 out of every 7 days of the week. I am terrified that I will never find love or happiness under these circumstances. How could I expect anyone else to love me, when I look at myself so unhappily and critically.

Rationally I know there is nothing seriously wrong with me. I am decent looking, still fairly young, employed, and living in a beautiful area. But I have lost hope. I have lost the feeling of empowerment or impulsiveness that makes me excited for the future. I have lost a sense of my goals and my future, and in some ways have condemned my future to be the same sad replay of the last 10 years of my life.

Without a doubt, the best chance I had at happiness and love came last year when I was still with "PM". Unfortunately I couldn't see the signs of my own self-destruction, before it was too late. I cried a lot when she called, because it not only demonstrated her compassion and friendship (which was sorely needed) but reminded me that I had given up something very precious to me, and replaced it with emptiness and doubt.

I used to think that what was important was that she knew how I felt, or that my parents did, or my friends. Somehow, I thought, by telling people about my torment, I could expunge it from my being. Later I began to feel like I needed to do this work on my own. Now, I just don't know what to do. I am completely bewildered at the prospect.

A lot of things I expect PM or my parents to accept about me, were things I couldn't accept about myself. In that way, I put an undue and overburdensome stress on relationships that ultimately would prove pivotal to my growth. I think they know that I am sorry (or at least I hope they do), and that I am working on being a better person inside and out.

Right now I feel like I just need plain old help. I just don't feel like I can do it alone anymore.

-->Rascilon<--

Monday, December 13, 2004

Websites I Can't Live Without

In case you were wondering, and I know you were, here is a little list of websites I consider to be invaluable, and check very frequently, if not everyday.

CNN- News

MSNBC News- News

Antiwar.com- News and Commentary

Court TV- News and Commentary

The Smoking Gun- Strange News

eBay- Online Auctions

Comcast- News and Entertainment

PayPal- Online Payment

Yahoo Groups!- Online Groups

Asta-La-Vista- Crack Database

SuprNova- BitTorrent Database

GameWinners- Game Cheats


Of course there are many more sites that I visit, but these are the ones I check out most frequently. I particularly like Antiwar.com for news and the SuprNova website, but feel free to check them out for yourself.

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Speaking of "Out of the Blue"

Last night I got a call from one of my favorite people in the whole world. My ex-girlfriend "PM", called to wish me a happy birthday. I am going to turn 29 on Thursday!

To my surprise and delight we talked for several hours, the first time that we'd had an extended discussion for many many months. I was really pleased to hear about the exciting stuff that she is doing at her new job and home in Houston. She has a really challenging translating job that requires a lot of education and a high degree of focus and professionalism. I've always admired her ability to work her tail off, but still make time for an active social life. She says that she will be contributing to an art installation at Burning Flip Side, which is the Texas equivalent of the larger Burning Man Festival. Not only that, she's taking Japanese (now her 3rd language), and learning "Fire-Spinning".

I really admire that she can do so much with her time. Myself, on the other hand, feel successful if I can figure out what I'm going to have for dinner. As we talked, I was fascinated by all the new and exciting things she's doing, even if at the same time I felt my life has been decidely more bland.

I was especially happy to hear that she was interested in having me come visit her someday. Not only was this completely unexpected, I could not possibly have anticipated how weepy I would become at the prospect. You don't meet people like her everyday, and she's certainly has left a lasting impression on me.

So I hope that we will keep the dialogue open, because she offers unique insights into life, that continue to surprise and benefit me. Hopefully I can come visit her in the near future (if I can just get some $ together), because I am sure that seeing her again in person would be very exciting.

Anyhow, it's probably time for me to get back to work. More later...

-->Rascilon<--

Not the Best Picture But...

Hey, when you have to scour a hard drive to find the most recent picture of yourself, it's not always easy to come up with something you actually like.

This picture in fact was taken in or around March of 2004, and from the looks of it, I could have used a shave and maybe a couple more hours of sleep. :) Anyhow, although you can't really tell from the picture, my hair is long (to my shoulders), and a lot blonder than it looks in that shot. I must've just gotten out of the shower or something.

I'm sure the wider internet office must find this missive absolutely fascinating, but what do you expect really? It is Monday morning after all, and it's a little hard to be imaginative when you're at work and haven't quite woken up yet.

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Thursday, December 09, 2004

Now That's Outrageous!

Reading CNN today, I discovered that the FCC and TSA are considering removing a law to allow the use of cell phones in flight.

CNN.com : Cell phone calls in flight?

This comes at the same time that they are banning carry-on butane lighters!

MSNBC.com : Butane lighters to be banned from airline flights

It strikes me as rather ridiculous that lighters would be banned as a flight risk because of the potential they could be used to detonate a bomb, at the same time they are considering allowing cell phones.

Seems like the old men in the FCC need to wake-up to the 21st century and realize that cell-phones are a common means that terrorists use to detonate bombs.

globalsecurity.org : Cell phones jury-rigged to detonate bombs

Whereas a terrorist with a butane lighter would have to have to have physical access to his bomb apparatus (in other words it would have to be in his carry-on or on his person), a cell-phone bomb would allow the bomber to put a potentially larger bomb into the cargo hold of a plane via normal check-in baggage.

Can any of us imagine a terrorist with a lighter, trying to strike a fuse in the passenger cabin without alerting suspicion? I would think the scenario is pretty implausible. On the other hand, wouldn't it be easier for the very same terrorist to dial a cell number to detonate a bomb located in the cargo hold?

I think the problem here is that the FCC is trying to push an industry agenda, without seriously considering the security ramifications.

Another case of "idiots at the helm" of our government.

Sheesh.

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Sadness this morning...

Wow, I was really shocked this morning when I got the news that Dimebag Darrell Abbott, 38, was shot dead by a crazed gunman.

Admittedly I haven't listened to any of DamagePlan's music, but I do recall having seen Pantera play at the Cow Palace near San Francisco, with White Zombie. I came to that show because I was a White Zombie fan. It was 1995, the same year they released their wildly popular "More Human than Human" album. Though Zombie put on an impressive show, filled with video and pyrotechnics, nothing prepared me for Pantera.

Unlike Zombie, which had an elaborate stage and lots of costuming and lights, Pantera took to a barren stage, dressed in grungy clothes that looked like they had slept in them all week. At first I was pretty sceptical, even though I'd heard a few Pantera tunes, and liked them well enough. Nothing prepared me for their show.

For the next two hours, these 4 guys played the fastest, loudest, and energetic music I have ever heard, before or since. The mosh pit literally EXPLODED the moment they started playing, and didn't let up until the band left the stage and hour and a half later. Here they were, 4 guys with their instruments and nothing else, but they turned the Cow Palace into one of the most impressive shows I have ever seen.

Dimebag Darrell Abbott was a great musician, who's energy, and pedal to the metal playing will be sorely missed.

Peace Darrell. 1966-2004

Dimebag Darrell

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

My Political Breakdown...

I thought it would be useful to make a post with my basic political beliefs, so that the "blogsphere" can get a better idea of what I am about. I welcome debate, so feel free to agree or disagree with anything I say.

I would consider myself politically liberal with social policy and libertarian when it comes to foreign policy.

Perhaps the best way to illustrate my beliefs, is to break them down by specific political issues, so here it goes... (Why not start with the most controversial first!)

On Abortion/Sex Education:

I am Pro-Choice. I am against late term abortions, except when the mothers life is threatened or if the child will be born with severe mental or physical defects that would prevent any quality of life for the child. I am in favor of parental notification for young women under 18, unless they are emancipated. I am also in favor of adoption alternative counseling for all potential mothers that are considering abortion. Ultimately I think women have the fundamental right to choose, but I support any efforts to educate these women about alternatives, as well as well as supporting on-going counciling and state or federal financial support for women who choose to carry the children to term. While I realize such a system would be vulnerable to abuse by some, the stigma of planned parenthood, and pregnancy in general, would almost guarantee this would not become a widespread phenomenon.

I am in favor of sex education in public primary schools, as early as 4th and 5th grade. However, I think such sex education should be done on an individual basis, with the children, parents and counselor. I think it is important that parents are included in the process, and that sex and sexuality is treated as more than simply a "human biological process for procreation." I think sex education today is too scientific, in the sense that it creates what I believe to be a false sense, that sexual activity, while risky, is an entirely biological process. I think that the state has an obligation to inform youth about the dangers of STD's and the availability of contraception, but the parents too, need to be allowed to express moral or religious values that run counter to their use or pre-marital sex in general. In other words, the schools need to tell children that these methods are out there, but parents need the opportunity to instruct the child as to the wisdom of their use.

On the Death Penalty:

Ethically I am against the death penalty, but I must consider that none of my friends or relatives have been murdered. For that reason, I think the death penalty should remain legal, but that federal restrictions should be placed on the states ability to execute prisoners. I think that prisoners who are sentenced to death by a state, should be sent up for federal review by a grand jury, and given one chance to appeal conviction. I do not think that prisoners should be granted multiple appeals, costing states millions if not billions of dollars. Instead, this "send up" system, should act as a reasonable safeguard for justice for both the community and the prisoner. Should a prisoner be acquited by the federal grand jury, they would then be sent back to the state for sentencing (short of death of course).

On Taxes:

This might be my most controversial statement yet, but I don't think most American's pay enough taxes. I don't make very much money, about $17/hour, but I still think the 31.5% in taxes I pay is far too low. I actually think that I should pay as much as twice this amount. I do think that there should be a cap on taxation at about 60%, but I think the average American can live on far, far less than we have grown accustomed too. Most of the middle class folks I know, still waste their money on things they "think" they need, like digital cable or going out to restaurants 4 times a month, when we could surely live on less. Of course I realize that if you take that money out of a consumers pocket, industry could suffer, but ultimately I believe an improvement in our infrastructure and social programs, would lead to greater long term growth. While people complain that immigration is causing job loss for example, the reality is that the influx of foreigners to our nation is not only the historical precedent, but one of the primary factors that leads to our global prominence. Imagine a country with completely free education all the way through P.h.D.? Surely this would not only boost our skilled workers in this country, but it would encourage others to come here and educate themselves for the benefit ultimately of our society. How do you guarantee immigrants, even illegals, participate in the tax structure? Tie it to their priviledges. I would propose that the I.R.S. and the D.M.V. coordinate for example, so that your drivers license is issued after the I.R.S. verify your taxes have been paid. The increased tax leverage this creates, could allow the federal and state governments to negotiate handsome subsidies to American corporations, in exchange for specific employment and wage goals. Essentially you could call this hybridized socio-capitalism. The profit motive must remain intact, but needs to be tied to an increasing degree to social responsibility.

On MediCare and Prescription Drugs:

I am not on MediCare, and am no expert. I don't think that the Bush Administration reform has been particularly beneficial for the public, and I criticize that MediCare does not have more legal leverage to negotiate drug prices. Ultimately however, drug companies need a profit motive to develop new cures, and to some extent need some protections to determine the price for drugs. I do think that pharmaceutical companies need more incentive from the federal government to provide affordable drugs and continue R&D efforts, but these benefits need to be coupled with specific public protections.

For perscriptions, Canada is not the answer, but I also find the Bush Administration's stance to be quite misleading. American's basically subsidize R&D for American pharmaceutical companies like Pfizer and Merck. I don not think that Canadian drugs should be banned in the U.S. (especially on the shaky reasoning of safety), but instead I propose that we "protect" this industry with tariffs, and force other countries to pay a rate "closer" to what we pay in the U.S.. Clearly some drugs would need to be exempted, like anti-HIV drugs, but why do Canadian's pay less for Viagra or Propecia?

On Iraq:

You didn't think I'd forget did you? Personally, I do not think the war in Iraq was launched under legitimate or honest reasons. I think many liberals have the tendency to focus on this fact alone. The idea that we were "duped" by the Bush Administration. I don't really think anyone was duped however, because the information and news has been freely available throughout this period, and those who feel "duped" always have educated reasons for feeling that way. How have they been "duped" then? Neither do I think red-state voters are stupid. The reality, I think, is that the Iraq War will benefit U.S. geo-political interests in the long term, but that the short term costs have been repeatedly denied and obscured by the executive. I think many American's are offended with this apparent dishonesty, but I don't think that that is enough of a reason to pull out of Iraq before our goals have been accomplished. Were I President, would I have invaded Iraq? No. But I can see what Bush is aiming to do, and I don't think that it flies in the face of American interests. Instead, I think Bush is taking an aggressive posture, that alienates many of us, but that will eventually lead to economic and political benefits down the road. Can you export Democracy on the barrel of a gun? Yes. I think you can.

On Separation of Church and State:

I think that the U.S. government should remain strongly secular in orientation. I do not think it is appropriate that we pray at school, have commandments outside of courtrooms, or print "In God we Trust" on our currency. I am strongly against faith based initiatives that would give any government money to religious groups for any reason. However, I do support limited censorship of network broadcasts, billboards, or other media clearly designed for mass public consumption. My basic philosophy is that it is the responsibility of government to protect the minority rights, without woefully comprimising the public good. Access to pornography or other kinds of debatable media should be limited but not eliminated. Any media outlet aiming for mass public appeal, should be required to a limited extent to protect the values of their audience, even if it means we end up with Disney-esque networks and radio, we still have satellite and cable for viewers who want different content. Public buildings should always be free of religious displays, including Christmas, or Easter displays. While I don't think their is parity between a Christian's offense to a naked nipple, and a Muslim's offense at a nativity scene, government has a responsibility to evangelize secularity as our common ground.

On Gay Marriage:

Here I may come off as a total politcal extremist, if I haven't already. I don't think that the states or federal government should grant ANY marriage licenses at all. (And yes I realize that is the first time I have used all CAPS yet in my diatribe). Instead, I think any two consenting adults over 18 should be given civil union certificates, which grant specific property and tax priviledges and rights. I think marriage should be the sole domain of religious institutions, who clearly have the largest stake in the issue. Under this system, religious individuals would be able to "validate" their union by marrying in a church, but their tax and financial rights would remain in parity with those who do not share their beliefs. I believe marriage is, and should be, the dominion of religion, and that the secular government ought not to interfere. The fact that we grant marriage priviledges, is the same poor judgement that lead to "Under God" in our pledge.

On Education:

As I have mentioned earlier in this post, I think it would be a good idea for the government to sponsor free education through a doctoral certificate. I think that these institutions do not necessarily need to be publicly run, and in fact I think government should encourage private enterprise to train and educate their own workforce. I think a new government program should be created to encourage high school graduates to seek corporate or public sponsors, who share the burden of paying for education in exchange for an agreement of service from the individual. Essentially a system like the military, but without all the bombs and guns. The military, in fact, is an example of a very successful educational enterprise, controlled almost completely by the federal government. I should mention that I think vouchers are a bad idea, because there is no mandate for private schools to cap their tuiton rates, or increase enrollment, which can lead to disenfranchised students while lining the pockets of the private sector.

On Environment:

I think environmental protection is in the public interest, but I also believe that corporations need to have some limited access to natural resources. In the case of ANWR, I think that some drilling should be allowed, but only after extensive environmental review. I believe that corporations should be encouraged and mandated to extend environmental protection, both for the public and natural good. Unfortunately, this means often crude policies must be adopted. Perhaps corporations should be expected to provide new habitat for displaced species, and/or fined heavily if industry leads to environmental or natural decline.

End of Part I.

I have realized that politics is a big topic, and for now at least, I need to give it a rest. I will try to address other pressing issues soon!

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All Is Well...

Well I finally made it home. Work today was pretty slow, and I was in a bad mood for no reason the first half of the day, but in the afternoon my project leader came by and told me I was doing a good job. It was random and unexpected, and made me feel quite a bit better about the day.

My friend took me home, and thankfully there was a break in the rain. I stopped by the local Safeway and picked up some Bass, a Jenni-O Turkey, and a Caesar Salad. I must admit, I spoiled myself a bit today. Blame it on my improved mood.

I showed a couple people my new exciting blog-space today, and the general reaction was "So What?" I don't really care what they think anyway, because I like to write, even if it's about the most mundane things.

For a long time I have wanted to start journaling again, but never have, largely because it is such a pain to find time to sit down and actually do it. The fact that blogs are computer based is ideal for a guy like me, because I am almost always in front of one monitor or another. Yep, I'm a real computer junkee.

Today I read some interesting articles about the U.S.S. Constitution or "Old Ironsides" as she is nicknamed, as well as some information about Fire Ants. I know that might sound like a strange combination, but I usually hit the news sites first thing in the morning, and from there I like to use Google to find information on any topics I come across that I have even a nominal interest in. From reading the articles about the ships, I found there was a whole lot of terminology related to the navy that I had never even heard of before. I still can't figure out what it means to "rake" or "wear" a ship, but I'll keep looking. I also found it interesting that the surgeons operating room floor was often painted red so that the sailors wouldn't freak out over all the blood on the floor.

Weird stuff. Makes me glad that I'm not an 18th century sailor, that's for sure!

Anyhow, more later, as I have to go eat now.

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Welcome to my first Blog!

Hi, my name is Nathan and I live in Monterey, on the California Central Coast.

As you might have already guessed, I am a liberal "Blue-State" voter, and I work in an IT department for a CSU in the area. I have a strong interest in national politics, world history, music, pc technology and astronomy, so expect some posts on these subjects from time to time.

I had considered writing a blog about a year ago, but at the time, not very many good or free services were around to help me do so. Given that I spend at least several hours a week on forums around the web, I thought that it was high time I created a centralized blogspace that I could refer to, rather than having my thoughts disappear into the ether on someone elses watch.

I read MSNBC.com and CNN.com almost entirely everyday, so I am pretty up-to-date on most issues covered by the American media. I have been particularly active following the news, since G.W. was elected in 2000. Somehow, I just find his Presidency more disagreeable, and by extension, more newsworthy.

I live in a small apartment about a 5 minute walk from the Pacific Ocean, and within about 15 minutes of the famous Pebble Beach Golf course. I don't have a girlfriend or roomate, but I do have an obnoxious orange tabby that tries to fill that void. His name is Jakey, but I usually call him by his nickname "Boobers."

I was born in 1975, have never been married, and have lived in California my whole life. Despite what you might think, I am not a liberal extremist (at least I don't think so), but I do appreciate a good spliff now and then.

I almost forgot! I am really into computer gaming for the PC. I particularly like to play role-playing or strategy games. My favorite game of all time would probably have to be Daggerfall, by Bethesda Softworks, though the Fallout series and Baldur's Gate are close runner-ups. I don't think that games need to have the best graphics or sound to be fun, but rather inventive gameplay that gives me a lot of opportunity to strategize. Replayability is a key issue for me, so I tend not to enjoy the linear shooters too much. After I played them through once or twice, I get bored really quick I do think that Half-Life 2 by Valve Entertainment is an excellent game though.

Anyhow, I think that's probably good enough for my first post. I will be back soon to comment more!

Nathan